Since I lost the closest thing I will ever have to a son. I haven't felt this gut-kicked in so long. . .
I wish nikkishine were around. I am absolutely untethered. Of course, i am in the midst of filing long over due divorce papers, living in a house of hate, and my job condition is bleak. At first I thought that was why my chest was so tight
But I miss him so. he was such an amazing being. people want to come next week and grieve with me, but I just want to be alone, in my campsite at the beach. Nikki, I am taking flowers to tie messages to, and I will release them in the surf. Thank you for the inspiration, where ever you are.
I hope I'm not this much of a basket case for a whole week.
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*~Lisa~*
ban the deed, not the breed~
three years of continuous sobriety and counting
<3 (its a sideways heart!)