[Stagebear]

Your story could easily be mine.
I am an alcoholic and, while I have not had a drink in 5.5 years or so, relapsed on pain meds...so much so that it cost me my job, my car and almost my life.
Only you can honestly assess whether you have become addicted to meds. I know that I do not recall a specific moment when I crossed that line but I do recall one day saying to myself "I'm no longer sober". I stopped being honest about my need for meds, about my dosages, my pain level, etc. Ended up doctor and pharmacy shopping, street buying etc. (That last one was a BIG "never" for me...)
I never question anyone's pain or their motives for taking meds. But I know, from experience, that even the purest of motives can result in disaster.
My primary knows I am an addict as do all doctors I come in contact with. It doesn't mean I will never be allowed pain meds again (and I stress, that is just for me, not a recommendation) but everyone in my life knows how they can support me as far as holding meds, not prescribing routinely, etc.
Honestly, it was a relief not to have to chase the pills anymore. It can be for you, too.