75 days clean...
Went into a recovery center in May...came home a week ago tomorrow to come home to an awkward situation with my girlfriend..
.she loved the indepedance she had while I was gone...I agreed...and relieved her by finding my own place and moving in the following friday...
Going to meetings and just realizing that I have no control over her...
the fear of her moving on scares me...
We both agreed that we would still date (be together)...but live in separate places..
Ive never had my own apartment......
And its my sober haven ya know?
Finished my steps...that totally changed my life.
thats why I keep coming back to those meetings..
I want that same high....
...or just entertainment value...lol
I cant but feel like there is something missing......
