[MCake]

No advice from me either, Bam.. just my (ongoing) experience:

I have been attracted to a certain "type" of guy since my early teens. In the past few years, I've begun discovering that they possess distinct qualities I perceive myself as lacking. This is obviously unhealthy. One of the keys, imho, is trying to cultivate self-love or, at the very least, self-acceptance. By accepting myself to the best of my ability, my perceptions and desires are slowly shifting. And this isn't a conscious process: I notice the effect, as the "types" I'm now attracted to are more blurry and flexible.

I doubt this is of much help. Sending you lots of hugs - love yourself