I broke down on Friday and drank until last night. I felt so exhausted as if my body wanted to shut down, I was depressed and ashamed and here I am sober as a jay bird again. The more times I see how I feel and act sober, the less times I have these stupid lapses. Honestly my body can't take them. On the one hand its kind of scary that I have lapses. On the other hand I haven't had any long lapses because I start feeling crappy and tired and horrible(blood sugar issues). I suppose if all I had was a slight headache in the morning I'd be drinking away!