[Lissa]

Hi everyone.

I'm new here. I guess I'll start with a little history. My mom is the Alcoholic. She has been every since I can remember. My dad left when I was very little and there hasn't really been anyone else in her life since then. It was always me, my mom and my little brother. She is the kindest person in the world and I love her with all of my heart. Even when she isn't sober, I still can see the person I love so much.

I am now 31 years old. I have all the classic symptoms of a child of an alcoholic. I rebelled hardcore in my teens through early 20s. I have a lot of trouble with relationships and self worth. I moved away from her for quite sometime. Until a couple of years ago. Now I have come back to her. We are roommates. Again let me say I love my mother. I always have. I just couldn't stand to be around her when I was younger. Now I love spending time with her when shes sober.

She worked at the same job for 20 years. Was never late or called in. But when she was not working she was drinking. Her drink is whiskey. She is and always will be too proud to get help and doesn't care too. She has to extremely sick to even get her to see a doctor because I know she fears that they will say something to her about it.

My major worry is this. She is now 55 and she has retired. Now she is home 24'7 and does nothing but drink. I don't even see her drinking coffee in the morning anymore. She has lost so much weight. She vomits some nights. Yet I don't know what to do for her. What stages do they go through before their liver fails? I'm just lost. I worry everyday that I'm going to come home and find her on the floor. But then for the brief time I see her sober in the morning she looks and sounds healthy. Basicly what happens towards the end. Any information you can give me will help me just to know where she is at health wise. Thanks so much.