RAH went out with a sober buddy yesterday to do a couple errands. an hour later his buddy was at the door to say he took RAH to the ER! He'd been sick all day with diverticulitis and was finally in such pain he couldn't take it.
So they admitted him, talked about and decided against surgery (whew) but he's gonna be there 4-6 days
I am agoraphobic and no way can I go to the hospital to see him - he understands but I feel really bad anyway.
I am really stressed out about it and stressed about having to take care of myself - selfish I KNOW - but my disease plus him spoiling me/feeding into it just has me totalled right now. On the other hand, HE is sounding much better
But *I* am a basket case - i can't stop shaking - the anxiety is non stop and i'm trying hard to NOT take extra meds ....................
