Woke up in the middle of the night crying with guilt and sadness for the life that I have lost to drinking! Came out here and felt so much better after talking to 6 people in a chat room!! I feel so much better talking to people who understand! The sun finally came out today!! I feel like there is hope!!!! Going to clean for sons graduation party next week! He is gonna be a freshman!!! Going to my first AA meeting tonight at 5 and try to live again! Thank you to every single one of you for talking and not judging! You all are beautiful and i need every single one of you! Maybe one day I will be the one helping!! That would be my dream! Today I just want to live again!!! Hugs and kisses!!! XOXOXO.....Thank you from the
:sorry bottom of my heart!!!!