Hi all!!! I need help and don't know where to begin!!! This is so hard for me! I have been drinking so much of my life I don't know how to stop!!! Last night I went out to a bar, said stupid things to people and have no idea how I got home!!! Waking up and begging my ex to please let me stay one more day as I have no where else to go!!! I am at bottom......46 years old and nothing to show for it but 3 beautiful children who I have let down over and over again!!! Had an ankle fusion 7 moths ago...was on complete bed rest and even though I have had drinking problems in the past it was a few times a year!! Now the bottle has become my best friend.....nothing like laying in bed with a bottle of rum and falling asleep!!! Meeting strange men and kissing....risking my job....2 DUI's and still I drink to become numb!!! Help....is there anyone out there who won't judge and offer advise? I called AA tonight...going to a meeting tomorrow!!!! I am so scared though....how do you go in??? Has anyone been there?? Thank you for y
our time!!! Just finally ready to live again!!!