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Originally Posted by Cherybaby66  There are other ways of managing chronic pain other than living on opiates. Have you spoke to a good pain management doc? |
My pain management guy is the one currently prescribing the meds. He also has me on gabapentin - which doesn't do a damned thing for the pain but does make me feel a bit drunk. I don't like him. I went to check out another practice yesterday - they're the ones who were proposing the fentanyl patch. I've got an appointment for an experimental neurological treatment next month. The hospital I am going to has a pain center, I might try to get an appointment with them.
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Originally Posted by Cherybaby66 And yes, what is making you crave is the fact that your brain is now hotwired to expect a certain amount of codeine a day. It's an addictive drug...and as you can see from the fact that you need to take more and more to get high...you have already built up quite a tolerance. It is going to get to the point where you aren't going to be able to manage your pain OR get high off the dosage you get. What then? |
See this is where my stupidity knows no bounds, I set up a connect for oxys because I don't get prescribed enough dilaudid anymore and unless my pain guy ups the rx, I'd need to look elsewhere. I also assume the oxys would get me high in a way the dilaudid does not. When nothing works... I honestly don't know. And don't want to know. I truly do not want to get to that point, I want to not want the drugs.
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Originally Posted by Cherybaby66 Do you have someone you can give your pain pills to that can dole them out to you as needed instead of you possessing the bottle? Sometimes that is a great help. |
No, unfortunately, I will never share this with my wife or anyone in my family.
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Originally Posted by Cherybaby66 You have to be honest with your doctors, Shea. And yourself. That's the first step toward getting clean...being honest with yourself. You have a problem that well oversteps the need of just managing your pain. You need to get a support team on your side...and yes, that will include doctors, friends and family and a good old fashioned NA meeting as often as you can go. Of course, you have this forum too...which is a good start. The support of this forum has gotten me through some very tough times in the middle of the night.
Good luck to you, Shea. It's not going to be easy...but it can be done. You have to WANT it. Really want it...and take your life back. |
Thanks Chery. I appreciate your response. I am being honest with myself. I know I am an addict. It is the being honest with others that becomes a roadblock.
I am very grateful that SR exists and such supportive, caring folks gather here.