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Originally Posted by Astro  I wish I had the right words to comfort you Jim, and I'm sorry for the many losses in your life. I can't imagine what it's like to lose siblings and children.
At the club where I attend AA meetings, it seems like we lose a few people every month. A few of them pass on quietly, sober after many years of recovery. Sadly, many of them are not so fortunate, addictions are not pretty diseases to die from. In my 45 years on this earth, I've watched my mother die from drinking and smoking, had a friend die in a murder-suicide, had another friend get drunk and drown in a canal, and in the last 4 years I've been sober I've watched quite a few others go, victims of substances.
Sometimes I can accept that one must die so that many can be saved, other times I just can't comprehend why God chooses certain people.
I've found the "Serenity Now!" search function at this site Hazelden -- Thought for the Day very helpful for meditations to help me through difficult periods in my life. The words hurt, confused, angry brought up dozens of meditations, maybe you'd find some of them useful. |
thanks for taking the time to reply ,i have slept most of the day and recharged my batteries a little
i have never felt so utterly alone,when times have gotten tough i have gotten drunk there were always drunks to drink with ,now i'm not drinking and dont want to fall off of my wagon i spend a lot of my time just on my own thinking ,i guess years and years of drunken life trying to forget have washed over me leaving me drowning in a dark sea of grief
i'm trying to help three people through their grief and its bloody exhausting and very painful,tomorrow as they say is another day maybe i can pull myself together and sort myself out
what on earth would i do without my Internet and my lap top
thanks for the link ,i will look at that in a minute
my mum was an alcoholic and i too watched her die from cancer not nice so i know how you feel,but we were never close,i used to go to work and spend all my wages on food for my siblings then cook and clean for them i was the oldest at 16 the others were only young ,drinking by my mother ruined our lives before they had even began..such a waste yet my brother that died in a house fire and my sister where alcoholics its funny you end up doing exactly the thing you hated the most as a child when you grow up