| Need to stay strong!
So I haven't been on in a long time but figured this would be an appropriate time to post.
My ex-b/f of 5 years is an addict and we lived together it was so up and down and just abusive to me mentally and physically I finally got out of the relationship even though it killed me. He was my world but I HAD to let go to save myself from it all. We've been broken up now for over 4 years and I'm with a great man now..
My ex has been in and out of jail/prison off and on for the past 7 years now and in the beginning I'd see him here and there as a friend but finally realized I was falling into the same old habits of trying to save him again. For the past year and a half I cut off all communication with him which was the best thing I could have done for myself and well for him as well seeing I was hurting him in the long run as well by being there. Yesterday one of my family members got ahold of me saying they talked with my ex and that he's out of jail again and back to the same old mind games of "oh feel sorry for me I have no money and no where to go and no family" etc and so on.. So far he hasnt tried to get ahold of me which I'm really hoping he doesnt do because I've been strong so far but I cant speak to him because I know I'll crumble.
Basically I'm just venting a little and praying that he doesnt try to contact me. Since the last time we spoke I've moved and he doesnt know where to however my phone number is still the same I guess I have to go back to not answering numbers I dont know. luckily for me I have a very supportive boyfriend now who understands what I've been through because he has been there with his brother. I've just got to stay strong and keep on the path I'm on now I wish the best for my ex I really do and pray he finds recovery and what not but I come first..
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