after losing two younger brothers and a my daughter Natasha
plus some other horrible stuff i cant possibly write on SR
my nieghbour has lost her younger sister 31 years old just dropped down dead,she is a friend and seeing as i've been carrying grief like a tattoo since i cant remember when, i have been talking and trying to help her through things ,yes its been tough brought back a lot of pain but i thought i got through it ok,another close friend just lost her 11 year old grandaughter to cancer ,i have done my bit said what i could ,done the hugs and chat thing to all of the family,my partner has been good to these people
now i'm getting to my point ,when my family died i had no one ,not a thing ,my partner was ok for a week then i was on my own we broke up i hit the bottle pretty near drank myself to death probably had a breakdown of some sorts,why can she be so compassionate to every one else and its dog but not me not even now,i'm just so hurt and confused and angry ... does she not care about me at all
