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My AH is addicted to pain meds.. he is on suboxone for the opiates but God only knows what else he is taking.. between abusing what the Dr is giving him and whatever else he is buying off the street he is pretty doped up most of the time and here lately sleeping seems to be his favortte hobby.. (I woke him up at 3.00 this afternoon so he could be at work at 4, probably should have let his sorry a@@ sleep but we need the money)
I used to lay awake at night and worry and as his wife I'm still concerned for his well being BUT I have come to accept that this is the way he is and this is what he does and until he decides to change and until he hits rock bottom nothing I say or do will make him do otherwise.. I have also accepted that a fatal overdoes is a very real posibility but again there is nothing I can do to prevent that from happening.. I have put him in my HP's hands know that he is better off there then for me to continue down the road of anxiety and worry..
What I just said may sound cruel to some people but it is the only way for me to detatch from his addiction and start living my life for me..
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