[tyler]

I totally know what you mean. Today I finally asked a fellow SR member for help. It's been offered before from many people here, but today I finally accepted. Shoot, that's not even asking for help, it's just accepting it, asking is even harder!!

Monday I am going to ask for help in the form of a theripist I need to find. I find the whole prospect scary and daunting. I'm going out to try to find a person I can bare my soul to in hopes of them being able to help me, but no guarantee that it will work. I think it is mostly anxiety/fear/lack of self worth. We have little self worth, so we figure why would anyone want to spend the time to help us when we don't even place much value on ourselves. At least I think that's how it is for me.

It sounds like you are active in AA, so I can promise that if you would have asked, you most likely would have mustered up a small army of helpers. You could have turned it into a nice sober 4th of July BBQ or something. I know it's hard to ask for help, but I've found that if you don't ask, you rarely get any. It's not too late to ask someone for some help for tomorrow!! Best of luck to you. Take care.