[Chamabama]

Maybe consider evaluating your strong emotions towards the weight gain. If someone you loved had gained 15-20 pounds, would you think they were 'disgusting'? Why does 15-20 pounds make you disgusting? The size of the heart is much more important than the size of the buns, ya know? If you could find a way to accept and love yourself because of who you are, and not evaluate your worth with the help of a scale, perhaps you could feel better about yourself.

If you don't feel good about yourself, it becomes much more difficult to take good care of yourself. And you become trapped in a loop.

Sometimes, when I get trapped in that negative loop, I start asking myself how I would treat someone I love dearly. For me, it's my sister. So I ask myself, 'would I love my sister any less if she were in this condition?' Answer, 'no!' Ok, so, 'how would I treat my sister if she were in this condition?' Answer, 'I would...'

And then I do that for myself.

Hope this makes sense! Congrats on 58 days! That is a wonderful accomplishment. I hope you can celebrate that and be gentle with yourself!