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Ready2Live · 07-04-2009, 01:15 AM

I can't sleep...is this normal? I am so happy that I went without drinking today! I can not remember the last time I went a day without a drink. (It's been years!) I am happy, but, at the same time I feel overwhelmed with regret. Regret from all the wasted years drinking. I want to make it up to everyone (God, my friends, family, ex hubby, and especially my kids) for not being the person I should have been. I have always been an "at home" drinker. I always made dinner, kept a clean house, supported the family, etc. I was just always buzzed (i.e. obnoxious ). I feel ashamed. I'm sure people around me knew it, but just kept quiet. I worry about the damage I've inflicted upon my children. How do you forgive yourself for being such a selfish person?

Okay... I'm done whining! Now it's time to pick myself up by my bootstraps and realize that those are the lies that try to keep me in bondage. God is bigger than that... He's powerful where I am powerless. I will trust Him and stand in the knowledge that He is loving, forgiving, and more than capable of healing me and restoring me to the whole person He intended me to be.

Good night SR.

Thanks for listening.

T.

A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle.

07-04-2009, 01:15 AM	#1 (permalink)
Ready2Live Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Tucson, AZ Posts: 34	End of day 1...can't sleep I can't sleep...is this normal? I am so happy that I went without drinking today! I can not remember the last time I went a day without a drink. (It's been years!) I am happy, but, at the same time I feel overwhelmed with regret. Regret from all the wasted years drinking. I want to make it up to everyone (God, my friends, family, ex hubby, and especially my kids) for not being the person I should have been. I have always been an "at home" drinker. I always made dinner, kept a clean house, supported the family, etc. I was just always buzzed (i.e. obnoxious ). I feel ashamed. I'm sure people around me knew it, but just kept quiet. I worry about the damage I've inflicted upon my children. How do you forgive yourself for being such a selfish person? Okay... I'm done whining! Now it's time to pick myself up by my bootstraps and realize that those are the lies that try to keep me in bondage. God is bigger than that... He's powerful where I am powerless. I will trust Him and stand in the knowledge that He is loving, forgiving, and more than capable of healing me and restoring me to the whole person He intended me to be. Good night SR. Thanks for listening. T. A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle.