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Originally Posted by deerwalk  I was out a week ago at a place that served alcohol, to see a movie- so as not to be a total recluse. As I was on the way out, bike and everything ready to roll, out the door and seconds from leaving someone offered me a shot. I wanted the company, lonely soul that I am (like many of us)... and it was all downhill from there. I can't have one and I can't say when. I get it. I really get it. A week later and I am tired and regretful, as I knew I'd be- but to feel alive for just a few days seemed worth the trade at the time. It isn't. It just never, ever is. I desire happiness as we all do. Like many I also seek it in the wrong ways. Try as I might to change that, the usual tempations are just so, so many. |
Don't be so hard on yourself. Stuff happens. Just get back on the horse and ride! As to the movie though, do you have theaters that serve alcohol? Maybe next time try a regular theater? I don't really go to movies, so I am not much in the know about these things.
One thing I am very much is the know about and can relate to is being a lonely soul. That is tough and I do understand. That's why SR is so great. A person gets to "talk" to others. My loneliness makes me do strange and harmful things too (I pick the wrong people IRL to trust, for example). Just hang in there and don't stray too far from SR.