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tim4960 · 07-02-2009, 09:48 PM

About a year after my girl passed and our 3 kids had for the most part settled back into their everyday groove, I decided it was time for a little work on me.A few years ago I had read a story on meditation and liked what it had to offer.There's a place about 5 miles FROM WHERE I LIVED called DENISE HILL. Its an old stone house that sits atop of this huge mountain,and on a clear day you can see over 7 valley's into another state, It's just amazing. Well every Saturday for the next year that's where I would sit and meditate. It was profound.Things that I thought were acceptable to me , were not even close to how I wanted to live my life.So I started rearranging things,deleting things and made my personal relationship with my GOD even stronger than it had already been.I stopped believing in religon and became spiritual.The best thing that happened that year was I finally got to know and partally understand who tim really was.All those years of always being with someone else prevented from doing so. (I don't think I was ready anyway).Today I pretty much know who I am, what I expect from myself and readied myself to laugh at the majority of stupidity in the world today.I also know what I want in my next relationship if I so choose to get into another one. All in all, It took a lot of hard work and some tears to become the person I am today. I can look at myself in the mirror and like who I see.
Sure I will make a lot more mistakes in the time I have left here , but that's ok i'm only human.

07-02-2009, 09:48 PM	#1 (permalink)
tim4960 Member Tournaments Won: 1 Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: torrington,ct Posts: 84	The Change : About a year after my girl passed and our 3 kids had for the most part settled back into their everyday groove, I decided it was time for a little work on me.A few years ago I had read a story on meditation and liked what it had to offer.There's a place about 5 miles FROM WHERE I LIVED called DENISE HILL. Its an old stone house that sits atop of this huge mountain,and on a clear day you can see over 7 valley's into another state, It's just amazing. Well every Saturday for the next year that's where I would sit and meditate. It was profound.Things that I thought were acceptable to me , were not even close to how I wanted to live my life.So I started rearranging things,deleting things and made my personal relationship with my GOD even stronger than it had already been.I stopped believing in religon and became spiritual.The best thing that happened that year was I finally got to know and partally understand who tim really was.All those years of always being with someone else prevented from doing so. (I don't think I was ready anyway).Today I pretty much know who I am, what I expect from myself and readied myself to laugh at the majority of stupidity in the world today.I also know what I want in my next relationship if I so choose to get into another one. All in all, It took a lot of hard work and some tears to become the person I am today. I can look at myself in the mirror and like who I see. Sure I will make a lot more mistakes in the time I have left here , but that's ok i'm only human.