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Chameleon Boy wrote:
I guess I'm the baby of this class? I hope to get to know everyone in the class of June because I really need support right now. I'm so depressed at the way I acted it just doesn't seem to be going away. I wish I would have blacked out the whole time but for some reason this time I do remember what I was like. Not something to be proud of.
Hi Chameleon!!! Welcome Welcome!!! I know exactly how you feel. The guilt can be so overwhelming and it seems the longer I am sober the more the memories flood back to me. I have wished too before that I would have been blacked out the whole time. But the last few nights I wish I could remember, I wish I knew what I had done or said...I wish I knew exactly what I needed to ask forgiveness for. Such a tough road we are all going down but just think we don't ever have to feel this way again. EVER! =) That makes me feel so much better....I need tons of support too, I only have 3 full days after a relapse....we can do this!! Hope you write more....
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Rebecca
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