| Confrontation over my alcohol induced emotional abuse
I drink alone... I drink more than my husband knows about... I drink through my stress of being a dental student. I never crave a drink before 1PM but I will frequently alter my food intake to get a better buzz.
I make promises that are beyond my reach and then have to make good on my word sometimes at a steep cost where my husband is involved. When I'm drinking, though I am in debt from school, I promise him expensive programs for the computer etc and then he reminds me when I'm not drinking and I worry about how much it will cost and then I immediately think about drinking again.... BUT The primary reason I came to SR is that I emotionally abuse a good friend of mine whenever I drink... and she has cancer.
She doesn't need this and she confronted me about how I am always criticizing her, bashing her religion, insulting her interests when I drink. She threatened to cut off all contact with me and she means a lot to me. I don't even know why I do it. One tiny little innocent thing can send me off on a verbal rampage. Worst thing of all is that I'm 29 and she is 59. She keeps implying I need to take care of this problem or she needs to be out of my life.
I'm forever apologizing to her the day after and never remembering what I even said.
I haven't had a drink in 5, going on 6 days. Mild potential withdrawal symptoms at worst... slight throbbing headache, pins and needles in my fingers... mild nausea here and there...mostly all gone except for the pins and needles and even that isn't bad.
Good luck to all others in a similar situation.
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