My moment of clarity (after my last bender) was finally
accepting that I'm an alcoholic
and that I needed help.
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Quote:
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We're often conflicted by our own sense of achievements. We feel that we can conquer any obstacle. We can be very stubborn with this
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I can fully relate to this statement. For too many years, "conquer any obstacle" meant that I
must learn to control alcohol. I had accomplished so much in other areas of my life - why can't I learn to master alcohol?
Later, "conquer any obstacle" meant that I could quit drinking without any help. Many failed efforts later, I finally had to accept that I could not quit on my own.
I'm sure that the pride & ego comes through loud & clear. One of the most painful lessons I learned - I had to be humbled (through repeated failures) and cut down to size.
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Where am I at today? I
accept my alcoholism & I
know that I will fully recover. I don't feel hopeless anymore! Recovery from alcoholism is an amazing journey!