[Horselover]

You guys really are amazing. As far as flying my Dad out it is a great idea, but I think he'll come on his own with his wife (my stepmom) at some point this fall or winter.

I haven't given up. We called the mortgage lady and she said we could close and they will be able to roll the cost into the mortgage, but no money back. That's not the best scenario, but it would work. If, and this is a big if at the moment, we can close this in July I could still maybe go. If it closes in August well then no. Son starts back to school in August and I have a friend I'm feeding her animals for while she's away in August. Promised her that months ago and can't go back on my word. See July is the only possibility. If I can get tickets under $1000 round trip then son and I will fly possibly. It still may work out and if not, I'll live. It just feels so bad, but I actually felt the feelings and I didn't drown them. I do feel glad that I didn't drown them because I know when things get that bad its okay to cry and really hurt because like cravings the feelings go too.

Thanks again SR for helping a person through what could have turned out to be a relapse, but wasn't because posting to you good people REALLY helped me. This is why SR can and does work. I really am thanking God (my HP) for this place and each and every one of you. xoxoxoxox Sarah