[ananda]

i use the law of cause and effect (karma) as my HP...however, karma is not the simplistic thing that some look at it as imo.....

Every cause has an effect, every effect becomes the next cause. Now..it isn't only my actions, but the actions of others and the actions of societies, family history, etc.....

all of these causes blend together have an effect which then caries on as the next cause...

sometimes I cannot understand the karma that is going on because it is simply too complecated for me to get and i don't alwways know all the peices...in fact rarely will i.

However, I believe that absolutely everything is under the umbrealla (control?) of the law of cause and effect....i have choices and responsiblity as far as what effect i contribute to the world...causes are alread a done deal...i think (still exploring this).

The more i understand about cause and effect the better I can contribute to the world and the more compasionate I can be. The less i understand the more it is likely that it will run my life willy nilly.

in a way it I have to accept that due to the karma of a situation...not only my actions, but the other person's past and issues, an effect hapens. This doesn't make the action wrong or the "reaction" right..it isn't about judgement to me it is simply what it is. the person's reaction then becomes a cause of an effect on me...which i then get to make an impact on what i send back out to the world.

When someone else says or does something hurtful to me...i believe that is real..not something where i get to "choose" nto to be hurt...however I get to choose weather to pass that hurt on to others at that moment or later, weather to turn it inward and harm myself any worse...

It is complicated for me because it is the nature of being a human being that i will be hurt, feel, be effected internally and externally...to think that isn't true for me is to pretend i have more power than i do and to miss the good parts as well as the negative of the human experience.

In my past, many circumstances and actions of others caused me to be harmed in many ways...some of the damage heals some doesnt...but i have to do my best to not turn that harm into outward karma of a negative sort.

The idea that my actions will bomerang back on me has nothing to do with karma as i understand it....as i explained to a friend once..it isn't that if I have an affair on my husband my husband will have an affair on me...it is that in the act of having the affair i have damaged myself as well as creating a negaive concequence in the world outside myself.

Wow....am i long winded or what

oh..so my HP is all powerful, no one can escape it's power...and it is solid dependable and makes no judgements...it neither loves nor hate me it simply is and if i work within it's framework i have a chance at a rather nice human expereince with the ups and downs that come along the way.