Hay guys and gals, Im speaking this week and have had some questions on how to deal with the gay issue myself, i mean it is about alcoholisim and i did drink over my sexuality alot self acceptence has been a big issue, i know only one gay man in recovery and all the rest r strait this is a small aa comunity in arkansas.and i dont want to freak them all out. but hay ive slipped over my sex issues for years, but do they realy need to know that... im not alcoholic because im gay i drank over it true used it as an excuse true and even now at 19mths sober i have trouble accepting myself for who i am. im 45 and still confused,, what alife. further work on the steps will hopefully help with that. and god has been good to me so i trust he will help me in all areas of my life..
but the question remains when i share in a general way what it used to be like there are men and compulsive sex issues all through my story how do i deal with that and still maintian some form of sanity i might get kicked out of aa ha ha. but lets face it when it comes right down to it all there kind words deep down im just that ****** that goes to mettings. like i said i have trouble with selfacceptence.im gonna do alot of praying and try to let god have this one . turn my thoughts and my actions over to him and do more inventory work,, any input would be nice
please dont be brutal im insecure enough ha ha
