bluerskies
Thank you for that post. I am you. I also lost a dear ex boyfriend - not to death - yet. He has drank for many years and is now going out with another drinker.
I had to leave when he turned verbally abusive. Silly me thought it was going to "wake him up". No, all he did was sigh in relief the obstacle between the Jack Daniels whiskey and him was out. He is living the merry life and all the common friends keep drinking with him. It is madness.
I work with my ex and I see how happy he looks now... I just do not recognize him. I loved him so much, yet without blinking he throws everything to the trash and replaces me. He drives drunk often. I feel I am the first casualty of war, the only one who "knows" the only one who has her eyes open. I asked him never to contact me again.
I too, have a new relation that is good and I too have problems letting my partner know how I feel. No one that has not been touched by alcoholism will ever understand how complex the mourning is.. how destructive it is.
I hope you find peace... and let me know how you did it
