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So yesterday my folks were having some neighborhood people for drinks and appitizers. They asked me to pick up some stuff from the store, including some beer. I didn't really consider this a problem as I don't really have an "issue" with beer. When I drink, I want to get drunk, and as they say, liquer is quicker!!

I picked up the stuff and brought it home. Well, turns out I bought the wrong kind of beer. One of the neighbors was a big fan of Rolling Rock, and I bought St Paulies Girl. Heck I don't know, they both come in green bottles!! So I said I'd go and swap it out if they wanted me to. We decided not to do that as I bought it in a town about 15 miles away and it seemed silly to drive all the way back there to just swap out some beer.

Turns out there were a couple of other things they needed from the store, so my Dad said, "Why don't you just go into town (only a couple of miles away) and you can pick up the groceries and beer there. You can also stop at the ABC and pick up a bottle of brandy for me too." Bells lights go off!! I know that I should say that is not such a good idea, but I don't. I think about it all the way there, and when I get there pick up a bottle of rum (my drink of choice) for me as well.

Obviously that bottle is long gone, drank completely last night. It was over the course of about 8 hours, so I wan't totally hammered, but I definately know I drank last night. (Not feeling my best for sure)

I'm not going to beat myself up over this though. It happened and now it's over. I learned I definately can't trust myself in an ABC store, and as someone with a drinking problem, really have no business being in there anyway. It'd kinda be like a problem gambler hanging out at a casino, "for the atmosphere". Not a good idea.

So I move on. I take something from this experience as I try to from all experiences, both good and bad. I told my father that it's probably not the best idea to be sending me to the ABC and what I did. He apologized for putting me in the situation and said he wouldn't do it again. It's kinda hard for them to understand as my DOC has always been pot, with booze filling in as necessary. But in truth I think I have a bigger issue with alcohol than I've allowed myself to believe. Plus, alcohol is all over, while you pretty much have to go out of your way to find pot.

Anyway, though I'd share this with my Secular peeps. Thanks for listening guys. Take care.