It's like I fear the end of the day. I fight the drug cravings and alcohol cravings well, they ren't so strong nowadays. I try to eat good all day long. today I had a greasy pizza, I gave in early. I try not to go spend money on junk i don't need. im depriving myself of a lot of stuff throughout the day, and it just bothers me that that Im just gonna pig out late night. I'm too tired to fight the cravings at bedtime. Im excercising which I don't like too much, eating well, staying sober, Im exhausted from living healthy, I just want to let loose at night.
I try not to think about it too much because then I'll feel sad knowing that Im throwing it all away. So I let let the night time come, If I eat a lot, I do , if i don't, then good. I usually decide to eat a lot though
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