Okay...
(*sigh*...)
Good news today at work...they want to promote me to shift manager.
Wonderful, right? What the crap am I complaining about?
...Well, besides the fact that I hate my job (I think I've mostly gotten over that one...
).....
This is a wonderful opportunity for me to accumulate resume fodder...get a boost in my pay...have full-time status...and I won't have to wear a ball cap anymore (I flip burgers for a living).
Here are some problems:
I'd have to have a completely open schedule...and that means anytime from 6AM to 2AM. Blech. But I think I can deal with that.
It would be more difficult for me to go out and take photographs, especially pictures of Great Blue Herons. Chances are fairly good that several of my shifts would be smack in the middle of the best times to take pictures.
I'm really enjoying taking pictures and would like to eventually transition from "hobby" to "serious". I know this will take a while to do, but I don't want to get off-track before I've really had a chance to go somewhere with my photographs. I'm not sure I'm willing to sacrifice this time. I must make time for my art...it is very important to me.
And the real biggie problem...
My mood swings. They are uncontrollable. I don't know how well I'll be able to handle myself.
Look, the job is easy. That's not the problem. The problem is my state of mind.
I scheduled an extra session this Wednesday with my therapist. I called today and was lucky to get a spot in the morning. I'm going to talk with her about this.
Honestly, I'm leaning towards taking the position. I really need the money. This is a good opportunity for me...even though the timing is a little bad. Maybe I should grin and bear it...I do need to move on at some point in my life. I've only ever worked entry-level jobs...I could have "moved up" a couple of times before...but I refused. Perhaps it's time to give it a try. If I screw it up...so what? I can always get another crappy job, right? *sigh*
But what about art?