the job that I had wanted since I was 16 (now 19) I finally got a couple of months ago...there was a probationary period and I got through that then about 2-3 weeks later (Friday just gone) my boss fired me...said I wasn't improving...I don't know what to do...
this just keeps happening and I honestly tried my hardest 100% I really did and it wasn't good enough...so I have started drinking and neglecting my meds...I am seeing my therapist again this week and I'm booking another docs appointment cos I just feel so low and out of control...
I still keep seeing these visions in my head whenever I close my eyes and at nighttime the voices still bother me...I'm so scared
Everything is just so messed up
I am now even more convinced of my bipolar because about a month ago I was on such a high (I posted a thread on here before) I spent loads of money and had those amazing ideas and was more energetic...
now it's all gone to pot and I really do just feel so out of control...I can't recognize the person I once was...
