[sayaprayer]

dear dad, i know you are on the other side, away from pain and the suffering of this life but it don't resolve the fact that your not here for me to say happy fathers day, although we had our ups and downs i still love ya, pity i didn't know then what i know now, about the effects of alcohol. you was a good dad you done the best you could and when i was in trouble you was always there on my side, and i know you'd be proud to know that I'm in recovery, iv made mistakes and I'm trying to rectify a lot of issues, it was a easy cop out to blame you and mum how i turned out and I'm sorry i NOW know that this can be hereditary, i remember when i was young you liked throwing and catching me up in the air i loved it, you taught me how to ride a bike, to Platte hair, they was good times but like us all when you had the drink in you there was no going back that's why i have compassion I'm not a hypocrite, you had the battle of the disease and while your away from it I'm still in battle i haven't had a drink for ages as you know i ain't touched drugs for longer and its getting easier but I'm not getting complacent, when you use to give me advice i wish i took it instead of thinking i knew best, well dad miss you like crazy but i know your here the memories will never go. rest in peace. xxxxxxxxxxxxx