Thank you all.....
Yes I have done the steps. I thought I had done them to the best of my ability....I know step 6 scares me because I am afraid of changing from the person I am, the parts I like and make me who I am, instead of the part of me that needs to move past or get by my defects.
My sponsor said this because he says I never seem to, well, be/am serene or joyful(?).....when I speak at meetings, he and others have said I come across as miserable......and I have to admit , that I do looking at it now.
At this point I am not even sure if ‘why’ is the right question.