Hi RockyGirl
Please continue to tell your therapist how you feel - I don't have much experience with anything you've described except using alcohol to numb the pain but I thought I'd post and give you the number and URL for Frank - the UK drugs and alcohol helpline - theres some really good reading (lots of it LOL) and links to all kinds of help and support there, not just drug related
FRANK - Need help
and the Samaritans
Samaritans Home Page-->
and, of course, keep posting here
nice to 'meet' you Rocky Girl
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