I couldn't stop using meth. It was causing some serious and almost fatal complications. Somehow I got linked to these forums which were being developed at the time, a few relly cool folks from california as I recall. Dan did an amzing job configuring vBulletin software for the vision of his domain here. As an IT developer/web designer myself with my own domains, I vaguely recall a transition as this site was first introduced and playing a minor role (really, I dint do much, maybe a web banner or two), the point is I felt very welcome here, and stuck around to contribute.
I don't think I helped. Anyone really, except to remind them how cunning and baffling this spiritual malady really is. You see, I had my own ideas about how I was to recover, annd what recovery was. They weren't "follow the path of acoholics anonymous"..
I had my own preconceptions. I was self-obsessed. I wanted people to folllow MY method of recovery, obviously for ego-inflation purposes. Needlesss to say, self-propulsion failed.
I did manage to retain some sobriety, until I convinced my sponsor that perhaps I wasn'nt an alcohlic and I should try some controlled drinking. My aa life in the physical world was much the same as my life on the web. It was all about ME.
But, .. As the big book preludes in "how it works" (chapter 5, all editions): "Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path..."
...to be continued...
