[namommy]

I've been posting on SR for years now, but I think I came on this forum maybe once during that time.

I am really depressed. I can't shake it. I have been basically sleeping constantly. I'm not sure which came first. The depression making me sleep all the time, or my other physical illnesses and chronic pain that have me confined to bed rest making me depressed.

I'm not even sure which forums to post in. I have depression, but I also have anxiety disorders, PTSD, and Pain Management. I generally post in Women in Recovery and Christians in Recovery, and recently I've been posting in the pain management forum.

I'm wondering if I should also post in the two mental health forums that fit me as well, but it's tough to decide because it all goes hand in hand.

I think of all the medical issues I have, including the mental health issues, I hate the depression most of all. It seems to be the hardest cycle for me to come out of.

I sit and watch the clock and wait for 9 o'clock to come so I can come into my room and come on=line before I start my "God time" or my hour or so that I spend praying and reading the bible, then going to sleep to escape the depression.

Thanks for letting me ramble.

Laurie