[crisco]

Hello,

I am a person with seven months clean, and I feel something is wrong. I am on step seven, call my sponsor every single day, and go to three meetings a week.

I feel that my programs lacks somebody providing strict direction. The sponsor makes all of the decision instead of me. My sponsor and I spend a lot of talking about feelings, emotions, and daily life issue. He provides a lot of advice but does not provide strict direction. He allows me to Burning Man events where there is a lot of alcohol being served. I have been to three camping events and did not have any temptation to drink.

The community has been very supportive in my recovery. They have provided a strong community of friends to help me cope with my social isolation. I did not have to remake my social network again. I do not go to events where alcohol is around when I am in bad mood. I had a woman that I call a lot so I can talk about my emotions and talk spiritual things. She does not drink and is part of the community.

A lot of sponsors who have barred me from spending time with those people. Yet, that community is huge part in making the first six months of soberity to very easy. It is funny that a community where people will drink a copious amount of alcohol at certain events will provide the support and provide the friendship that I need to cope with life. And yes, I do have two commiments and go to the same meetings week and after week.

For most alcoholics, this environment would be difficult to deal with. Yet, I feel serenity and no reason to drink ever again by spending time with those people. And my sponsor let me do what i ever please and I tell him that I am going to these event.

Is there something wrong with my program? Do I need get another sponsor who provides strict direction? I feel that I am doing the program right, but I could be wrong and I do need to take very strict direction