Welcome to our recovery community.....
I too returned to drinking many times after I decided to quit.
I was in and out of AA for 4 years....
Then I read a book.....here is a link to excerpts
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html (Excerpts from "Under The Influence")
I took that information....
re- newed my connection to God and AA
and finally I quit drinking.
Keep posting....we do understand..