[tears25]

Hello everyone...(sorry for the long post)

So I have a dilema.
Since deciding I truly have an alcohol problem and need to do something about it I have spent the majority, but not all of it sober (still struggling very hard with the social side of it).

I don't have many friends and am not strong enough to turn down a drink for the opportunity of some company, nor am I strong enough to drink soda when they are drinking alcohol.

Also I have had some interest lately from some beautiful girls.
I have been desparate for a healthy relationship for a long time (years) as I do think we are social creatures, but saying that I also wouldn't get myself into a bad relationship just for the sake of being in one.
However now I have this dilema where I know if I meet someone for a date, it will most likely be in a bar, where they will most likely be drinking alcohol.

So even if I go on these 1 off days and try keep alcohol to a sensible level (try very very hard) and even if we have a good date, if things go well, I still gotta admit somewhere a long the line that I can't drink anymore and hope they don't run a mile.

So i'm not sure what to do.
I can't stand this lonelyness and know when I am in a relationship it generally makes me a much healthier and happier person. Knowing there is somewhere there who actually cares about you is a big deal for me.
But at the same time I can't afford to risk going out on dates this early in trying to recover.

Any adivce?