[harleyrunt]

Hey guys I just wanted to drop you a line and let you know I am still alive. I spent 21 days in the hospital. They had to remove 3 bowel obstructions as a result of the urostomy they did in August 2007. I have been kind of depressed it was a rough month. I am clean aside from the stuff they gave me in the hospital. I remain clean outside of the hospital. I guess it has taken some of the pressure off of me because if I touch any kind of narcotic it will shut down my stomach and bring on a world of hurt. It happened a couple of times in the hospital because of the meds. Still when your depressed you just want to feel better and the thought of using has tempted me. They are going to have me go back to counseling just because of everything I went through this last time. I can't say it is a bad idea either. I just keep trying to count my blessings I have a wonderful husband who kept the house and everything together while I was down and continued to work a third shift job. I married the best man in the world he is truly a gift from god. I have my mom and dad and brothers. I have my kid and my dogs and just those things in my life make me keep forging ahead at times when I just want to quit. Keep me I your prayers guys. I hope everyone is doing well and are clean and sober. Take care!!!