I had to let go of my intellectual understanding and let it come from my heart.
I had to change what I believed. If I ignored, resisted or blamed a power greater than me I was too busy in my head to really feel what was in my heart.
If I believed the higher power of my understanding abandoned me, it would be up to me to come to believe in a power greater than me that is willing to grant me courage, strength and guidance no matter what.
If I can arrive at the conclusion I was abandoned then it is just as possible to arrive at an new conclusion, one with hope.