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Savsy · 06-05-2009, 11:16 PM

I went to rehab october 16, last year. I stayed there for 6 months.
I am only 17 so when I went home, the staff didn't want me too, but I was stupid again, and thought my parents had changed. So I've been home a couple months now and things are worse then before I went to rehab. My Dad, Brother and sister all have diagnosed OCD. My brother also has aspergers. everyday when I get home from school I clean and make everything spotless, then I'll make dinner. But when my dad walks in that door I get that scared feeling, like I have to watch what I say and do, I can't even describe it. My dad usually will end up yelling and screaming at me, etc because dinner wasn't perfect, a piece of paper wasn't straight, and he just goes on and on. Then my mom is never home because she can't stand being here. When she is here, my dad is yelling and screaming at her too. I honestly feel more triggered being at home, then I would be hanging out with my dealer. and if I try to go anywhere they think I'll be using. I wanna move out but they won't let me get a job, and I can't sign a lease on an apartment. also my little sister, I would feel so guilty leaving her behind. I just don't know what to do.

06-05-2009, 11:16 PM	#1 (permalink)
Savsy Member Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 15	My Father I went to rehab october 16, last year. I stayed there for 6 months. I am only 17 so when I went home, the staff didn't want me too, but I was stupid again, and thought my parents had changed. So I've been home a couple months now and things are worse then before I went to rehab. My Dad, Brother and sister all have diagnosed OCD. My brother also has aspergers. everyday when I get home from school I clean and make everything spotless, then I'll make dinner. But when my dad walks in that door I get that scared feeling, like I have to watch what I say and do, I can't even describe it. My dad usually will end up yelling and screaming at me, etc because dinner wasn't perfect, a piece of paper wasn't straight, and he just goes on and on. Then my mom is never home because she can't stand being here. When she is here, my dad is yelling and screaming at her too. I honestly feel more triggered being at home, then I would be hanging out with my dealer. and if I try to go anywhere they think I'll be using. I wanna move out but they won't let me get a job, and I can't sign a lease on an apartment. also my little sister, I would feel so guilty leaving her behind. I just don't know what to do.