Thanks for the advice Silla and Cleansing, makes a lot of sense.
I have started doing a daily blog so I can try follow my patterns in mood, just need to keep it up and what maybe is triggering me to decide to mess around with pils or decide to drink.
I know I have to keep up with medications and stuff but its not I forget, I just "lose" it and get nihilistic and just don't want to help myself anymore. I think this is the biggest issue of mine i need to work out.
