[Bamboozle]

I know what I'm missing...I see it in other people everyday. I feel hollow inside...empty. To say it sucks is a gross understatement. The people who have the simplest things in life tend to be the happiest. These folks have others to hold, others to talk to…they have what they need for life satisfaction. I have none of that.

I’ve never had the chance to be in a relationship and make mistakes. You folks have already done that.

I've done everything else in life I care to do. I know what really matters to me...and anything and everything I do just passes the time. I have no real enjoyment for anything.

I’m not afraid to admit that I do need people…I do need social interaction. Nearly every single person on the planet needs that too, although they hate to admit it. Being “needy” is a so-called sign of weakness or is thought of as a mental problem. I don’t agree. Social interaction is as important as oxygen, food and water.


I'd trade off some of my better qualities to simply feel "normal". By "normal" I mean well-adjusted, not socially inept. Just like there is a difference between feeling depressed and actually being depressed, there is a difference between feeling anxious and being anxious. People who have social anxiety know what a debilitating condition it is. Anyone who’s never suffered from it cannot know what it’s like. I wish I could make this part of me disappear. I can only hope to manage it one day.


There are very few people who understand where I’m coming from. I hope they are out there and send me a PM. I’m flying this flag for them. And if there is anyone out there lurking right now and can identify with what I’m saying, at least know that you aren’t the only one.