I was powerless because once I picked up that first drink, I couldn't predict with any accuracy what might happen next.
Even though I was a binge drinker and not a daily one, the periods in between drunks were miserable. I was restless, irritable, and discontented. Alcohol took that away for me.
When I first got sober, I
thought an alcoholic was a skid-row bum drinking cheap wine out of a paper bag.
As time went on, I learned to listen for the similarities at meetings, not the differences.
A written first step really opened up my eyes to just how powerless I was, and just how unmanageable my life was.
