I am a lesbian 21 yr old with 4 months of sobriety. I have had a lot of transitions lately to deal with. A break up about 2-3 months ago and changing sponsors recently. My previous sponsor "let me go" about 3 weeks ago and I just got a new sponsor yesterday. Since my previous sponsor let me go I've had this nagging lonely feeling. Sometimes it isn't apparent, because I'm focused on other things, but I'm pretty sure it's always there. I desperately want a girlfriend. I don't want to end up with a hostage though. I know that I should probably wait until I get more grounded with my new sponsor and start back up on working my program, but I'm afraid if the oppurtunity presents itself (which I have taken steps to try to make sure it will) I will end up dating. I'm very conflicted about this. I will surely pray on it and any advice would be helpful (probably more helpful if I actually take it)...
