[scaredykat]

Hi guys,

I had a bad dream about AA last night. I dreamed you weren't sober unless you read the "pass it on" book. I know it's crazy. LOL

I wonder if its my insecurities. I went out for coffee last night for the first time with a bunch of people from the meeting. Now for the longest time these people have made me nervous and intimidated. Most of them have 20+ years of sobriety and are very involved in AA with Intergroup, District, and Area meetings. Now that I'm in Intergroup and I'm the schedule person I figured i should go and let them get to know me. I'm quiet as a church mouse I've been told by someone. I can't remember now who told me that. LOL

Anyway, we had a good time. Oh, and they asked me to read "how it works" at the meeting last night. I was so nervous. I've done service work like chairing and secretary at other smaller groups, but this meeting last night is one of the bigger meetings in my area. So, that's why I was so nervous. Large crowds make me nervous and i turn into that little church mouse. LOL

Anyway, I like doing service work and it's makes me think of my home group today. We're very small, just me and 2 other girls that are active members. I feel saddened today that they don't want to be involved in AA like myself. The one girl in my group doesn't even have a sponser or work the steps even. Anyway, I want to be like those old timers and get involved and stay involved. It keeps me sober. I don't ever want to go back being alone everyday, just drinking.