Hi, everyone!
The Infinite decided to send the neighbor back out of town for another event-filled weekend elsewhere - and the FIRST thing I do is come back to SR!
I've made almost every meeting this week, one day not because I couldn't afford the gas to go.
So I passed a sheet around with the heading
"Barb Dwyer needs a ride to meetings...
if you can help, please leave your number. Thanks"
Everyone who had a vehicle put down their #.
How sweet!!!!!
No disruption,
no scene about it,
just passed it around while everyone else
talked about their problems with alcoholism.
And a HUGE thing for me to just up and say 'Hey, I need a hand here."
We grow in this program.
We change in this program.
We heal in this Program.
And we need each other in this Program.
No WONDER we want it for everyone who suffers.
I must be 'back'.
And I was asked by someone to be their sponsor..
So I said okay.
For those who remember -
I stopped taking on sponsees when I got sick.
I felt so ill, I truly believed that I shouldn't exert
the extra energy to do my best for them.
Yeah.
I second - guess that decision as well.
But I try to never feel bad about
decisions I make
when I've prayed about it
and truly believe I am doing the right thing.
ANYWAY -
I've a new sponsee.
She's going to call me later
we'll probably meet tomorry.
So of COURSE
I had the initial 'panic attack'
when I got home -
You know what I'm talking about -
the nervous crap we run in our heads
'omg where do we start -
I've forgot the parts of the book'
you remember -
the 'yadda yadda' we do
to keep ourselves unhappy.
But I got over it pretty quick
because I'd made an 'index' of page numbers and
what I called my
'Step to stepping'...
I'm not above tricking myself into doing the right thing.
Enough for now thanks for reading.
Hugs to everyone!
