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you are right on, funnyone. the thing that has changed is me, not his habits or likes. i wish i could feel comfortable with people drinking, go out and whatever like i used to because the whole self pity thing is based on my belief that being sober restricts me from doing these things. do you have much time? my sponser and others' advice is to stay away at first. but on the other hand, sometimes i wonder if i'm keeping one foot in the old way of life's door in order to remain in this relationship, that we wouldn't be happy together otherwise. Or maybe i'm preferring to stay jealous, angry, and resentful so i have an excuse not to do the work of recovery..."if only i didn't have to smell beer on his breath or hear him talk about drinking or see empty beer cans in the recycling well, then my recovery would be better..."
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