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bluepolarbear · 05-21-2009, 06:24 PM

I am shaking at the mere thought of not binge eating. I've lost weight before - 90 pounds between 2004 and 2007 - from eating healthily and working out.

Now, I'm trying to cut out the alcohol and pills (something I didn't have a real problem with back then - I wasn't using pills at all) and instead have been eating so much I've been having dreadful feelings that I'm going to die because of how much I've been eating (not suicidal thoughts - like, I just think that I'm going to explode or something silly like that).

My friend sent me a link to this board for alcohol/drug support and when I stumbled onto the eating disorder board I started getting all weird and shaky. The thought of not eating is freaking me the f out.

I get bursts of energy where I want to exercise and start getting on the right track for weight loss and my health (I know deep down I can do it), but I feel like every time I get good thoughts into my head, I sabotage myself and start eating again.

Sorry this is a very long first post, but do you have any advice on where to go from here? The first step is hardest, I know, but I don't remember alcohol being this hard to deal with. Ugh. Help if you can.

And hi, by the way. Thanks.

05-21-2009, 06:24 PM	#1 (permalink)
bluepolarbear new. Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Berwyn, IL Posts: 3	Anxiety from reading the board! I am shaking at the mere thought of not binge eating. I've lost weight before - 90 pounds between 2004 and 2007 - from eating healthily and working out. Now, I'm trying to cut out the alcohol and pills (something I didn't have a real problem with back then - I wasn't using pills at all) and instead have been eating so much I've been having dreadful feelings that I'm going to die because of how much I've been eating (not suicidal thoughts - like, I just think that I'm going to explode or something silly like that). My friend sent me a link to this board for alcohol/drug support and when I stumbled onto the eating disorder board I started getting all weird and shaky. The thought of not eating is freaking me the f out. I get bursts of energy where I want to exercise and start getting on the right track for weight loss and my health (I know deep down I can do it), but I feel like every time I get good thoughts into my head, I sabotage myself and start eating again. Sorry this is a very long first post, but do you have any advice on where to go from here? The first step is hardest, I know, but I don't remember alcohol being this hard to deal with. Ugh. Help if you can. And hi, by the way. Thanks.