| I haven't been with a man in about a year
And it seems like everytime I was with men, I was doing the harder drugs that I didin't even like. Crystal meth, crack.
I sometimes wonder if it's the drugs that attract me to men, or if I'm just gay. I don't even find any attraction in females lately, Im always thinking about men. But it seems like the only way to get with men, like as in a sure thing, is to go out there and do what they do, which is crack or crystal meth.
Ive tried to internet, but it's too much back and forth talking, and thenu have o meet up for a date, TEHEN MAYBE, there is the sex.
And if i went on the sex sites, then the sexwas a sure thing, but I always had to be drunk to have sex, that's with both men and woman. Maybe my problem doesn't have to deal with men per se. Maybe I'm just an addict who needs some healing.
Im on Day 7 now, and Im feeling a little better.
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